*CHEEEEESE*

Here are a few pictures from my cell phone :)

Eli wearing aunt paytons sunglasses.



I love this picture. He has been working so hard to jump...so I took him out to the trampoline where he could really do his thing. This is the face I kept getting. So classic!



Eli wants everything someone else has. This includes my moms readin glasses and the laptop. SO here is a picture of Eli getting everything he wants :)



Izaak sitting in Eli's chair. He looks so big!! He weighs half of Eli already!! at his 1 month appt he was 10lbs 8oz. Eli only weighs 21lbs 4oz. I am afraid Izaak is going to be the "BIG, little brother." so stinking cute though!



Our town has a fun deal they do every summer called the "Free Concert Series." I have never gone to any of the concerts before now, and I'm so mad we have never been before. It was a blast! I always said I wanted to go, but we just always did other things, or just forgot about it. But Eli loves music so much, I really wanted to go this year. We went and had so much fun! Me, Eli, my sister, Steph, her brother and Stephs cousin and her boyfriend met us. It was a great time :) [[Especially for FREE]]



















Before Eli was born I got 2 gift certificates to a place called Kiln Creations. So I decided that Eli and I should and make something for Payton, since she is ALWAYS so so helpful! It is a pottery place. They have the pottery, you choose what you want, you paint it, they glaze and blast it for you and you pick it up a week later. It was fun......except I am NOT taking Eli back until he is like 5, and will actually enjoy it. I thought they would have a little area for the kids to sit, but it wasn't really designed for that. Thank GOD that Morgan went with us, because she helped while Steph and I designed out pieces :) It was fun, and I can't wait to take it back when he will actually care!
Here are some pictures from our "adventure:"

I just love this picture. They are only 8 weeks apart and Carter is so much taller and bigger than my little Eli :) Love these boys so so much!


causing a rukus at Kiln Creations.


Causing trouble. AND he pooped 5 minutes after we got there, and I didn't bring the diaper bag in...it was like a race against time to avoid poop up the back. so funny. NEVER a dull moment.




Eli dances to any music that he hears...fast or slow...hes dancing! Here he is dancing while standing on a barstool.


Steph and Carter painting


carter is eating trix





crazy hair!!

Eli and Auntie Pay

Payton and her best friend Joelle. Joelle basically lives here--since its summer...and we LOVE having her. These girls (especially Payton) are SO SO SO helpful when its comes to the boys! I am so thankful for them.




he is getting soooo big!


my little chubby monkey :)




.love.my.boys.




Eli is trying to give Izaak his paci. He is such a great big brother!




xoxo
Tay

just winging it

I found this on another blog I often read. I thought it was perfect for how I have been feeling lately :)
xoxo

oh snap

We went to visit my Uncle Tom on Memorial Day weekend. We had some photoshoots. Uncle Tom wanted some pictures with his kiddos and then Aunt Kari wanted some. . .then I realized I didn't have any pictures with my boys, so I had Payton snapped a few. This was the funniest one I think... :) Enjoy the pictures!

The chaos that is my life :)

Mini photo we had! :) Aunt Kari and her kiddos Hannah and Adam

Another mini shoot we did of Uncle Tom and his kids. I wish taking pictures was my job!

This is my favorite. I wanted them all in the window to the left, but Cam and Danielle ran to the other windows and it just ended up being like this :) so so fun.

boy cousins minus Nicholas

Cameron, Payton, Hannah, Danielle and Adam

Love this picture of my "Big Little Guy" coming after the camera.



Payton, Hannah and Raine :)

Mom and Aunt Kari

Nana and her great grandbabies.

Uncle Toms house

Eli tryin to get Danielle to come outside.

Eli loving the puppy Snow White.

fun times.



A night out. MUCH NEEDED. so much fun.

Amanda and Katie

Steph and our friend Edwin from TX.....visitin for the 500

the ladies :) I had a BLAST!!

Steph and Brian....sibling love

me and B. I can't say enough amazing things about this man. He has been my rock through the last few months (and his sister too...) they are amazing.....wonderful......perfect friends.

Arthur.Steph.Edwin.

my bestest friend ever.

xoxo

Dear Diary

So I have been a little on the edgy/stressed/angry/emotional side lately. I knew it would come eventually(I was just plain sad for a while...now I'm pretty much just pissed off at SOMEONE). and this is my "diary" so here you have it......

Dear Diary :)
I am so frustrated with certain people and how they have decided that they can do whatever they want, party, and dip out on responsibilities (financially and emotionally and physically...and whatever else matters...), while I take care of a screaming/crying/constipated/wakes up every 2-3 hours a night-baby and a can't walk all the way good enough/can't talk/teething/needy toddling little 16 month old; who are the most adorable little bebes eva!!!
I must say I am a little jealous that someone gets to spend their time with their teenage girlfriend, instead of their children and play and party while I am taking care of these babies. (did you just poo your pants because I am airing someones business? Don't care....don't care one little bit. If that someone doesn't care what they are doing, why on earth should I care about hurting your feelings with what I'm saying??)
NOW do NOT get me wrong--I ADORE these little boys, they are the most joy I have in my life. I would die for them. My social life has disappeared, and I'm ok with this. I love laughing and playing with them. I love taking care of them. I can't imagine life without them. I am so proud of them....and the accomplishments they have made and the trials we are overcoming as a mini-family. I am just frustrated with the fact that I was NOT supposed to be doing this solo (and yes I do have the help of my parents, and friends, but no help from the one that was supposed to be there through it all. YOU signed up for this just like I did....and apparently it meant nothing.) I am bitter.(obviously) I am mad. I am thankful. I am smiling. Lots of emotions....even 3 months later.

I had a long talk with my parents and they helped me realize a lot. As much as I want to kick and scream, I cannot control anyone else but myself, and my children. I am working on this realization.

I am a good mom. I have to tell myself this everyday, because I have someone telling me constantly that I am a horrible mother. I refuse to put my children in harms way in regards to drugs, alcohol, and irresponsible human beings...and if refusing this makes me a bad mom...then I'm as bad as it comes. I will not subject my children to such behavior----do it on your own time homie.

And as much as I would like to tell you EVERYTHING that is going on...that simply would solve nothing, and make me look just as bad. If you want to know anything I will gladly tell you---I'm just not going to put it ALL out here. I know someone is shaking their head at me, and frankly I do not care at all. If people want to act a mess and be irresponsible then they obviously do not care if their life is exploited. . .at least thats my opinion....and I'm allowed to have one.

I am struggling everyday to take care of these boys the best I can and to provide for them financially/physically/emotionally/etc. I am doing the best I can and I think I'm doing a damn good job. Like I said, I have help from my parents, and grandparents and friends---but for the most part I am pulling this load alone.

And guess what....both boys are fed, clothed, happy, smiling and breathing=JOB COMPLETE.