As most of you know (and if you didnt', now you do). Zach and I are going to be parents. Scariest thought of my life, and you are probably scared too. ha. This was DEFINITELY unplanned...yet I find it to be a little blessing in disguise. I plan on being forward and such about things...so ask away. But the answer to the most common question is YES...I was on the pill, and also told at one point that I would never be able to have kids, and if I did, it would be very difficult. I have something called PCOS, that results in messed up ovulation, and all kinds of good stuff you can google on the internet. SO , this was a huuuge surprise to Z and myself. Zach and I are doing well and we are taking it hour by hour, day by day. We were a little nerve wrecked at the beginning of things, and began to fall apart, but lately we have started to realize that being parents is the most amazing gift in the world and we are going to embrace it. NO, this wasn't my plan for life. I had dreams of being married and being elated when I read the word pregnant on the stick I peed on...::laughs:: but instead I was terrified, shocked and had no clue what I was going to do. I actually think I may have blacked out a little bit, but Stephanie came to my rescue! :) (which by the way she is 21 weeks preggo and doing amazing...there is something in the water in this town.) But with the support of my AMAZING friends and AMAZING family, everything is going to be just fine.
SO plan on me updating this weekly...a lot more frequently than normal, b/c i actually have things to talk about! SO...heres my story if you want to read it.
I had been sooooooo tired for about 2 weeks. I would come home and fall asleep and wake up 1 or 2 hours later with Manning staring at me like I was crazy and I wouldnt even remember being sleepy or falling alseep. My body felt warped, and very sore and I felt awful most of the day. So after deciding that there was a 1% chance of me being pregnant, I bought a test, took it
I have ALWAYS wanted to be a mom, but like I said, with the way our lives have been the last 6 months, this wasn't my idea of bliss. So after telling everyone over the course of the last 7 weeks, most of my family and friends know...and Zachs family is slowly finding out. We wanted to make it to the 11 or 12 week mark before we announced it to the world.
I have been blessed with amazing, and amazingly EXPENSIVE medical care thus far. And I have been able to have 3 ultrasounds, which is more than most people get their entire pregnancy!! I got my first one to determine how far along I was on June 17th! Steph went with me, and it was a little tiny flicker, with a heartbeat of 105. It looked like a little poppyseed. My gyno sent me, just to make sure things were ok, b/c she doesnt do OB anymore. SO that was that.
Then I found a Doctor and she wanted to do another one b/c I'm considered high risk for 3 reasons; I dont weigh an annoying 120 lbs(thus making me high risk...if you get what i'm saying) , b/c I have the PCOS, and had some slight spotting (i told you i wasn't holding back). So that was neat, b/c just 3 weeks after the first one, it looked like a little alien....a kidney bean with a heartrate of 182bpm. I also had blood work done, and everything came back perfect!
Above: The poppyseed!
Above: @ 8 weeks and 3 days.
Soooooo today was the best day yet! Zach and I got to the Doctor, got weighed, and I lost weight!! whoooo! I feel like a hefer (sorry Audra), and actually lost a bit and she also did a question and answer session. "How are you feeling....blahblahblah" She was super nice, this was the first time I got to meet her. and She said "well we aren't going to hear the heartbeat today." I was a little upset b/c I had called weeks prior and asked what this appt would involve, b/c I wasn't going to make Zach come if he didnt need to, and I told her this. She said "Well, I check with the tech" and we waited for a little bit and she called me back. I was sooo excited for Z to hear the heartbeat, b/c I had heard it once before. So she puts the jelly on my belly ::laughs:: and there was our peanut. We actually got to see it AGAIN!!!!! It was bouncing everywhere...and even waived at us! It looks like big bird to me. But we got to hear the heartbeat and it was 182....which is what it was last time too. They say thats great, although I think its CRAZY high!
Today at 12 weeks! Looks like Big Bird :)
I was sad b/c I really liked this Doctor, but we have to change b/c my insurance is stupid and I have to get another doctor. But I talked to them today and they seem awesome. I am going thru Community North. Thats where Tyanne had Iyanna and its an amazing place, with amazing, bright people.
I've been feeling alright. A few stretching, crampy issues. And SERIOUS bouts of nausea....but I've only puked once! and I think that was from food that I ate the night before too. I have been MOODY as hell. Which I apologize for...b/c I am already an emotional, dramatic, moody person to begin with. and lately I've had some headaches. But I can't complain at all, after hearing peoples horror stories. I wasn't sleeping well, but I decided it was the vitamins I was taking at night, so now I'm taking them in the morning, and it gives me more energy. :)
So like I said...No this wasn't my life plan, at all. But it is what it is. And its a blessing. I appreciate everyones love and support. Like my dad said "There is nothing more amazing than bringing a human being into this world."
xoxo
Tay
