....16 weeks....

So yesterday was 16 weeks. Heres an update on the peanut! :) I can't wait to call it he or she!! 3 more weeks til we find out!!! :) SO apparently the next 3 weeks the peanut goes thru quite a growth spurt! This week its approx. 4.5 inches long and weighs about 3.5 ounces. Its eyes are moving closer to the front of the head, and the ears are moving in the right direction too!! Thank goodness for no more alien baby...its finally taking more and more of a human form!! haha. Its growing toenails too!!!:) And lastly...and the most fun thing to me is that its swallowing amniotic fluid and peeing it out....pretty funny! The kidneys are working! Yipee for that! :)

I have felt a lot more movement this weekend! :) Its pretty cool. I know its nothing compared to what I will feel....(i hear about things like jabs in the ribs and good stuff like that...) but its still so reassuring to know its in there...dropping kicking and swimming away! :) I have been feeling some stretching and pulling too of my ligaments. Its not very pleasant..but tis life I guess.

To answer questions to those of you who haven't seen me...I am not really "showing." I feel large. But b/c I'm not a small girl anyways, therefore it will probably be a while before I am really showing. Audra requested belly pictures. and I'm sorry but you probably wont be seeing any of those ever. but I will not say NEVER....never say never....but i'm going to say probably not. :)

I hope everyone had a great weekend!

xoxo
Tay

Random :) I.....

So I thought this was fun...I found this on a random blog, and thought I would do it....it makes you think...and I'm bored! For those of you that blog....do it! :)

I am: happy, but ready to be done working for the day.

I know: I'm loved..and that I have wonderful family and friends.

I want: get my voice back!! Its been gone for a week!

I have: a lot on my mind....

I wish: I had a million dollars.

I hate: being lied to.

I miss: My brother...I wish he was here to meet his niece/nephew in Feburary.

I fear: I'll never get married.

I feel: the baby moving!!!!!!!

I hear: a tanning bed running.

I smell: tanning lotion :)

I crave: right now, at this moment, nothing...hahaha MARK IT DOWN.

I search: online for random stuff, all day everyday..

I wonder: if we are having a boy or a girl.

I regret: nothing right now.

I love: you!!!

I care: way to much about what other people think, lately

I always: say I love you.

I am not: sad.

I believe: I will be an amazing mother.

I dance: to nothing. at least not in the last 3 months.

I sing:to the radio..and lots of carrie underwood! except i have no voice!

I fight: the least i can..but sometime my hormones take over. (sorry :( )

I write: a lot. Its one of my favorite things to do.

I lose (loss/lost): 8lbs since being pregnant...weird, yeah. complaining? no!

I win: hmm.....i dont know.

I never: get enough sleep!

I listen: the best I can.

I am scared: this baby won't let us see if its a boy or a girl....3 weeks!!!

I need: to figure out what im going to do about my living situation in a few months.

I am happy about: pretty much everything right now.

xoxo

Tay

...Jumping Bean...

So I definitely felt the baby punch/kick/move/whatever, today. It was awesome! I was soooooooo excited! :) It felt like someone was popping popcorn in my belly. I can't believe I have something growing inside of me thats kicking me already..... :) ::smiles::

Also...Stephanie rented a fetal heart doppler and we are able to hear the babies heartbeats. I was able to record it last night on my cell phone and then i emailed it to myself, but I can't figure out how to put it on here, or convert it to the right program. so if anyone can help me, then you will be able to hear the heartbeat. We counted and it was 152bpm :) Love it.

ok thats all for now! :)

xoxo
tay

**The Great Indiana State Fair**

So....I definitely went to the fair 3 times this year...bahahaha. Whatever, right?! You can never have too many walking tacos and corndogs! :)

Here are the pictures from all of my trips! :) Enjoy!


Carrie Underwood!!!!




This is the 4 of us, before Carrie, when Stephanie made us watch the donkey show.
I'm a good best friend, that I stuck around for this. ::wink wink::
and yes i know i'm pale...its annoying, please dont remind me.


This is Trip 2....Mom and Dad being goofy.
Dont worry, we didnt let him walk around like that alll night. hahaha.


Oh Miss Morgan


Morgan and I had a Photo Session while waiting for
Payton and Erin on the rides.


Morgan looks like she might be on drugs in this pictures.
hahahaha. But I promise she's not.

Love my sissy!

Dad being silly!



Who knew the Fair had a WATER LOG RIDE.
NASTY. But they liked it.


This was the only picture I took from trip 3.
That is like lots of pounds of cheese. I think it was like 10 or 15 THOUSAND
pounds. I was fascinated.


Hope all is well!

xoxo
Tay

New Doctor :)

So I went to the new Doctors office on Wednesday. I didn't get to meet my actual Doctor, b/c she was on vacation, but I met her Medical Assistants and her Nurse Pratititioner. This Doctors office was amazing. It was so diverse, with all different types of people in it, and that made me HAPPY!! So Anyways....I felt like they were A LOT more informative, and willing to answer my questions (and I have a lot of them) than the other Dr. (Please dont get me wrong, I liked my old Dr. But I think they were vauge if you are really early into your pregnancy, as opposed to the new office), they were just so excited for me, and made me more excited. My blood pressure was 92/60....which is a little low for me, but not too far off my normal bp. I got lectured from Stephanie about it already...don't worry. "You better keep that up Taylor, we dont need you passing out."....is what she said to me ;) love the best friend, thats a nurse. hahaha. I got to hear the heartbeat which was 156bpm. She said that it sounded great and strong, and I finally know exactly where the baby is in my tummy...I didnt know before. ha! I made an appointment to find out the sex for SEPTEMBER 15!!!! So hopefully this baby isn't stubborn like BOTH of its parents, and lets us see the "goods" so we know if we are buying dresses and fingernail polish, or basketball jerseys and hats!! :) I feel like its a boy. And hey...I have a 50/50 chance of being right, right?! ha! Either way I will be completely happy, as long as its healthy and growing the way it should! I will be 19 weeks at that point and will have some other testing done for down syndome and stuff like that. So pray for me that everything is well! :)

Moms birthday is today, so she wants to go to the fair for her bday! Sooo..hopefully I will have pictures. (dont hold me to it) I've been slacking in my picture taking. Ive been a little sleepy, and busy! :)

Hope all is well. Have a wonderful weekend :)

xoxo
tay

p.s. Stephanie and Corey have finished their nursery and it looks awesome. Note the green b/c they are FUN SUCKERS and aren't finding out the sex of the baby. So here is a link to her blog so you can see what Brooklyn (if its a girl)/Carter's (if its a boy) room looks like! www.stephaniecrutchfield.blogspot.com

[[14 weeks]]

So Sunday was my 14 week mark. And it was almost as if what I've been reading that would happen in the 14th week, immediately started happening. My body feels so achey....its stretching, and I can feel it. Its really weird!! My hips ache, and my belly just feels like its stretching in a million directions and A LOT! Also, according to my books and such, it says the baby is about 3 to 4 inches. Its working on moving its eyes, but they don't open yet!Baby can smile and frown now and can grasp things!! They say that it may be even sucking its thumb!! Oh man! I hope I get a thumb sucker, I really dont think there is anything cuter in the world! Bryce sucked his thumb....I just think its precious! :)

Baby got its first gifts the last few weeks. Amanda bought the cutest outfit that says "I'm Awesome" across the front of it. And a little onsie that has turtles all over it (mitchells love turtles!!!), and it says "Thrill Seeker" She also got me a really cute picture frame that says Baby on it. I need to take pictures so everyone can see, I just forgot. Also, this weekend my Nana gave me the CUTEST picture frame ever that has 4 little spots for firsts....the first day, first kiss, first bath, and first something else..i can't remember right now...hmmm. Anyways...she also got a really neat SOOOOFT blankey for the peanut! Its pink, blue, yellow and green, so no matter what the sex is it will be perfect! :) It makes me excited to be getting things. My mom also has somewhat lost her mind in the purchasing area. She went to a garage sale and found a high chair, stroller, car seat, bouncy seat, and a swing. They all match, and look like they weren't even used. She also went to a little store called Once Upon a Child and found A LOT of outfits for like $1 and $2 a piece!! They are the cutest things I've ever seen. ::smiling::

We went to the State Fair and to see Carrie Underwood on Friday night. Morgan, Steph, Amanda, and myself. Our seats were awesome, the show was awesome. I absolutely love Carrie Underwood. Mildly obsessed, if you want to say. She is just so talented and makes me happy! That was like the 6th concert we have been to all summer, and although it wasn't really the best show persay, she was BY FAR the best vocal preformance we have seen. She was never off a note...ever...It was unbelievable. I had never been to a concert at the fair, and it was neat to see all of the behind the scene action. There is no "backstage" at the fair, so it was neat to see her come out of her trailer/bus, and walk up to the stage. It was just really cool. I would love to see her at Deer Creek (Verizon..whatever you call it), and a little bit longer of a show sometime. It was fun stuff! The fair was great, even though we couldn't find the pigs. That was rather disappointing. But dont you worry, because Stephanie made us watch a Donkey show. Yes...I said Donkey show. Silly asses. (bahahaha) They were doing hurdles and racing the Donkeys. Thank God Tonya came to meet us, or Stephanie might still have us sitting there watching those stinking donkeys! Food was good as usual! Hopefully we go back this weekend for moms birthday or when Daniels friend, Sara comes to town. :) Gotta love the walking Tacos.

Pretty excited for the new Dr. office tmw. Not 100% sure if I meet the new Dr. tmw....but either way...I'm just really happy to have found a place that I'm staying at! :) Hope I like them all!

Girls started school yesterday! Morgan is a Senior (yikes...college next year...i think we should lock her in her room)...and Paytons started Junior High! They both had pretty good days, they said. Very proud of both of them! They are growing up and are both so so smart! :)


xoxo
Tay

my.rule.book.

So what I'm about to talk about is probably more than I should air. But its heavy on my mind and heart, and I told you all that I wasn't holding back on this blog. I am documenting everything I live...whether you like it or not. I need all of the support I can get through everything and unfortuantely, this week definitley did end the way it began (see Random Thoughts). So if you dont want to read this, and dont want to know, its ok!! Just dont go any farther. I will keep it somewhat censored, but you'll get the point.


Finding out you are going to be a parent has got to the be scariest realization ever. EVER. Especially in my current situation. And especially when I have basically been informed I will be doing things on my own. I was afraid of this, but ready to accept it when it came. I hope that things change when it comes down to certain peoples responsibilities, but if not I have accepted it 110%.
People who aren't married have children everyday. There is no rule book that says you have to be married or even in love with the mom or dad although it would be nice, in a perfect world, we have to remember that sometimes unplanned incidents (or blessings as I would like to call it) occur. But I think if I were to write a rule book it would say you have to be responsible and take care of what you created. Agreed? In my rule book it would say that its ok to be scared, its completely normal as far as I'm concerned....but just because one doesnt carry the baby doesnt mean they shouldn't have to give their support emotionally, physically, and financially. In my rule book it would say that all you have to do as a mommy and daddy....and grandma and grandpa...and aunts and cousins.....all we have to do is let the little miracle know that it is loved. That is the most important job we all have, I think. I pray everyday that my rule book could be followed. But we dont always get what we want.
Even if some people are choosing to opt out (today, b/c im sure it will change later...as usual), I am so thankful to have wonderful friends and family who are supporting me and my little peanut. But being angry, stressed, scared, or overly emotional about all of this isn't going to make the situation change at all, and this I have realized. It is others that have a way to go in understanding this.
Like I've said before the situation I'm in, isn't the ideal situation for my life. But its a blessing, and I refuse to be ashamed, embarassed or anything but excited at the fact that I'm going to be a Mom. There are some women that can't have children, there are some that don't want children....I apparentely, and obviously am neither, and should thank God for this. I've always wanted to be a mom. I wanted to be married, and in love, but sometimes God has a different plan for people....I'll take it...I can accept things. I was told I wouldn't have babies, and I swallowed a pill that claimed it was 99% effective against pregnancy, on a daily basis. This, my friends, was what God had in store for me. Whether you like it or not.
Times change, people change, situations change, but I feel like....I stay the same. Its frustrating, but I cant' control it, and I refuse to make an attempt to control it. Not my job. Everything that is happening, is happening for a reason. But one thing is for sure, you can't wish this situation away, because its still going to be here in the morning, and its definitely going to be here by February.
If you have a spare moment, please pray for my sanity.

Also...I dont know if I talked about this in my other posts...so if I did, forgive me, baby has taken my brain. Seriously. But I am due February 9,2009. kinda fun..02.09.09...but we all know its very rare to come on your due date. My mom says that 3/4 of us came on our due dates....and 3/4 on Fridays. Payton just had to be the oddball out, and be born on a Monday..a week or so early! :) But she is our baby girl! Anyways...I WILL be finding out the sex. But I will NOT, NOT, NOT, be sharing names with anyone. I am a freak about names. I have seen the reactions that some rude people give when people talk about names, and when this happens to me...it makes me change my mind. It is rather frustrating, and I chose not to deal with peoples faces, and stupid comments. I have a boy name picked out...its pretty set. And yes, to answer your question in a certain way, if it is a boy, he will be named after Bryce. But I will let you know, that Bryce won't be his first name, for my own personal reasons. Bryce was Bryces name...I couldnt look at my baby and call him Bryce...But I think you will all be pleased with what I've come up with (and if not...whatever!)....but if its a girl..you'll never know I guess. haha. If its a girl...I have a lot of different names picked out. I have always said I will name my children diferent, off the wall names...names you can't find on an Indiana License plate at Wal Mart or on a Pencil in party city. So have fun guessing if you want....but I'm not telling. Because when the baby is here the name I have picked with the be the name it carries forever...and no one will have a choice other than to like it. So thats, that!!!

On a lighter note....Carrie Underwood concert is tonight at the Fair. Me, Steph, Morgan and Amanda are going! I'm pretttttty excited. Music has always been my outlet, and she has helped me thru a lot in my life. Love her!! And I cannot wait to see her in concert! :) And the weather is so perfect!! Yay for sunshine, statefair corn dogs, walking tacos and Carrie Underwood! The perfect ending to a cruddy week.
Went to visit Iyanna last night....she wasn't happy. Hopefully I can make it over there more often so she doesnt scream everytime I pick her up. She is only preparing me. haha!
I go to my new Doctor on Wednesday. I dont think I get to meet her, but I will in a couple of weeks. I am just glad to finally be settled where I need to be!

Again..we are all adults here, and this is my business. I chose to put it out there, just like others have chosen the path that they are going to take. If you dont like it, I dont want to hear about it, I warned you, and you shouldn't have read it :)

xoxo
Tay

.random.thoughts.

Random thoughts.

**I hope my week doesnt end the way it has began.

**I really hope I dont have to do this on my own. I really, really hope I don't.

**Its amazing to me how something the size of "large peach" can make my body feel the way it feels.

**I am so tired of getting dizzy, its driving me insane.....how long does this last?? Be honest with me, I can take it. ::smiles::

**I can't wait to meet my new Doctor in 10 days!

**I am offically in my 2nd trimester, and still waiting to not be tired! I am definitely less tired, but still can sleep whenever I want.........now if I could just STAY asleep and not have to get up and pee every 2 hours! That would be my dream! haha

**I wish I could win the lottery.

**I wish this was easier for me. But I'm trying to as positive as I can.

**I have started getting bad headaches.

**I have started feeling flutters......I think. I just want to know if its the baby moving around, or just gas! :) haha

**My memory SUCKS so so bad, as each day passes! I dont remember things very well.

**I think I'm going to start going back to church. I need Jesus. a lot. and I'm not being funny.

**Completely random: I can't wait for the Carrie Underwood concert at the State Fair on Friday! Out of all 8 or 9 concerts we have this summer, I've been looking forward to this one the most!

**Manning is still not feeling 100%, but is getting better! (I went to get his nails clipped last week, they found a growth on his leg, said it was a staph infection, put him on steriods, then he couldn't control his bladder....he peed wherever, whenever, or he couldn't pee at all. not fun. and very expensive.) He is getting me ready to be a Mommy.

**I AM going to be a Mommy. and I promise to be the best one I can be...I had a great example!

There are my thoughts. I'm sure there were more, before I started.....but I would imagine I forgot them. The baby has stolen my brain!!! It is really gone.

13 weeks and 1 day today. 26 weeks and 6 days to go. Good God, seems far away.

Your prayers would be helpful. I'm currently feel like I'm living in a tornado. I'm waiting for the calm after the storm. There has to be right?

xoxo
Tay