Ok. So...this has nothing to do with anything I ever care or complain about. But for some reason its just eating at me and I want to write/rant/be pissed about it.
And please know before going on that I have NEVER given 2 poos about politics and I have never voted. History and things of that nature have always bored me, and have never held my interest. Yes, I have been yelled at about this, but its something I never cared about. However, I will vote this year. I am 25 years old, I am going to be a mom, and I am/will witness/ing the most amazing, monumental election of my lifetime. I have always asked...what does my vote really do? Does it really matter? This year, I dont really care if it does count, but in my head I will know that I put one vote in for something I believe in.
Now..having said that.....I will move on to my topic! :)
I dont know if its b/c I was raised in a house where dad was black and mom was white and we were not to judge people for any reason, or if its just the way I am. But I can NOT stand it when people are judgemental about certain situations. I understand that everyone passes some sort of judgement on others for one reason or another, but I feel so strongly about this I am going to tell you. :)Does this surprise you? I just feel like there are certain things we should keep our noses out of and this is one....
So everyday I get to work and pull up the internet and the home page is http://www.aol.com/ There are always news feeds, and I always look through them to see if there is anything fun, sad, crazy, whatever. I am kind of obsessed with the news. So yesterday I pull it up and the first thing I see is a picture of the new VP candidate Sarah Palin, and a quote underneath it that said "Sarah Palin,Praying away the Gay." I mean, are you serious? Honestly? OK....immediately I click on it and become angry.http://www.aolrewind.com/?feature=165935&ncid=aolnws00150000000002&icid=100214839x1208989049x1200534397
Some of the most best friends I made in college were gay, and they even so confirmed my belief that they are born this way. A person is a person, no matter who they chose to love. PERIOD. Who are we to judge them? Do you honestly think that they would CHOOSE to live a lifestyle where they are CONSTANTLY criticized and treated horribly for who they love? Really? And more importantly, do you hoenstly think you can pray them to feel otherwise? Seriously? EVEN IF, by chance they are not born this way, and choose this life, who in the hell are we to say they aren't allowed to love a person of the same sex?? Why on earth should we care? Oh..it just makes me so angry. (same thing with people against interracial relationships. how about you marry who you want to marry and stay out of others peoples business?.) If Sarah Palin doesnt want people to judge her b/c her 17 year old daughter is pregnant, or b/c she chose to have a child at an older age, that resulted in him having Down Syndrome (which there is nothing wrong with either, we are all human),then she should probably shut her mouth. (my opinion) *newsflash* She is not perfect. Her family is not perfect. She should not act as if she is perfection, by trying to "pray away the gay." Furious. It is perfectly ok to disagree with the lifestyle. I dont agree with a lot of things, but its the way life is. Its how the world works. This place would be awfully boring if everyone looked, talked, and walked the same way, dont you think?
Everyday I watch the Ellen DeGeneres show. She is what helps me get through my days...if I don't catch her at 11, I watch her when I get home from work on my DVR. She was just recently married, and yesterda she had footage and pictures from her wedding. I cried. (I'm hormonal!) I just think that its so awesome they are allowed to make their love legal. If they were in a car accident and Ellen knew that Portia (her wifey) didn't or did want to be resuscitated, now she has the legal right to make that decision, when before she didn't. They have been together for a long time and Ellen wanted to be able to take care of her for the rest of her life, if something happened to her. Its not about being pissy b/c they dont have the same rights as heterosexuals, its about having legal rights to each other and their lives. Its about saying, I love this person so much I just vowed to spend the rest of my life with them. Who are we to judge. Love is love, no matter who you direct it towards. I dont understand why people dont see this. I can't IMAGINE what would happen if they wouldn't let my parents get married just b/c dad is black and mom is white.
We are fighting a stupid ass war. People are dying everyday, everywhere. There was a man beaten to death and put in a trashcan in someones backyard this week in Indy. There are children abducted on a daily basis. There are kids who don't have coats in the winter time. There are people that don't have heat in the winter time. There are children that are beaten everyday. There are kids that dont have money to eat lunch at school everyday. There are people, still in 2008, without running water in their homes. There are people that sleep on the floor every night. There are moms that work 3 jobs and go to school full time just to have the best for their children, and it still isn't enough. I have to pay $4.00 a gallon of gas just go live, and go about my business. There are people in New Orleans that STILL dont have homes. And this woman, and soooo many others are HONESTLY worried about people loving people of the same sex? Get over yourself. Seriously. If you think homosexuals are doing something that God doesnt want them to do, then please, LET GOD DEAL WITH IT. Quit trying to play God and instead worry about what your doing in your life to try better this world.
SO yeah...thats my opinion. I know that people I love disagree with me, and thats fine. But honestly, aren't there other things to worry about? They aren't harming us in any way. And the judgment passed on them makes my heart hurt.
So thats all I have for today :) I feel better now. haha!
I hope everyone is well. We are going to the Journey concert tonight! This is the7th and last concert of the summer for us (for now). and only 5 days until we find out the sex of the baby! :) So check back Monday for an update!!! We have decided on names (at least for now). I might tell, but not yet, at least until it gets closer, b/c we are always changing our minds!
xoxo
Tay
Wednesday, September 10, 2008
100 things you didnt need to know :)
You should do this too because it would be fun and I want to read yours.
1. I don’t really like to eat breakfast @ breakfast time.
2. I have to have my blankets completely straight before I go to bed, or I can’t sleep.
3. Manning sleeps right next to me, on his blanket every night, smashed against my legs.
4. I have to break this by the time the baby comes. But it will break my heart.
5. I talk to Manning like he is a human. Haha. My roommate makes fun of me for this.
6. I hate school. I feel like I will never finish.
7. I am a really bad athlete, but love to watch most all sports.
8. I want to rollerblade.
9. I can’t wait to teach this little one new things!
10. I hope he/she plays basketball!
11. Or football.
12. I hate soccer.
13. I’m a pack-rat
14. I hate hate hate putting my laundry away.
15. But I don’t mind doing it
16. I love to make lists. To do, Wish lists…any list
17. But I hardly ever use them
18. I try to walk Manning at least 1 mile everyday.
19. I’ve been doing pretty well with keeping to this.
20. But I skipped yesterday :) oops.
21. I love the smell of fresh cut grass.
22. And boys cologne.
23. I love going to my parents’ house and simply sitting.
24. It is so incredibly calming. (Most of the time.)
25. I can’t believe Morgan is going to go to college next year.
26. And I can’t believe Payton is going to be 13 years old.
27. I was her age when she was born.
28. And she will be the same age, when my little peanut comes!
29. The remote for the TV at work is broken, and it’s driving me insane.
30. I wish I saw my grandparents more often.
31. I want to tan soooo bad. It’s not bad to do, just not good.
32. Its bad to overheat…obviously.
33. I love living in Fishers.
34. I don’t ever plan on moving too far.
35. Zach and I have decided on names for the baby. Boy or girl. :)
36. But I’m sure they will change. Hahaha. We still aren’t telling, yet anyways.
37. We find out what we are having in 5 days(Monday 9am!!!!)and I’m losing sleep over it.
38. I am officially due February 9th, 2009.
39. But the Doctor told me I wouldn’t last that long. Lets hope.
40. I LOVE LOVE LOVE the way it feels when the baby kicks.
41. Its kicking me right now!
42. I think it’s a boy.
43. I hate when people lie.
44. I forgive too easily.
45. And I annoy myself with it.
46. I love to go places and do things
47. I love Cherry Coke.
48. I love to meet new people and can usually be friends with everyone.
49. I’m a quick judge of character…
50. I hate speaking in front of groups.
51. It makes me want to throw up.
52. But I’m outgoing, so I don’t really know why I’m this way.
53. I am obsessed with Texting. I would rather text than call on most occasions.
54. I love Halloween.
55. I think I’m getting Carpel Tunnel.
56. Stephanie says its because I text too much. Teehee!
57. I am obsessed with Thanksgiving.
58. Yes, I love the food, but mostly love it because its not all about presents.
59. Its about family.
60. I can’t wait for Basketball Season, and another winter spent in the NC gym.
61. I love fall.
62. I wish I could wear flip flops everyday.
63. I HATE socks. They make my feet hot.
64. I need to go back to church.
65. I think I might vote for the first time ever this year.
66. Things that certain politicians are saying are making my blood boil.
67. I cry a lot.
68. I have a temper.
69. But I’m really working on it.
70. I sleep with a fan on my face every night.
71. I wish some people would get over themselves and accept Zach and I’s situation.
72. 4 of my friends are pregnant, I make 5.
73. Stephanie is Due December 13
74. Tonya is due December 18
75. Shannon is due January 4
76. Then I’m next.
77. And Mindy is due sometime in April (don’t drink the water in Hamilton county)
78. I have the most bizarre dreams EVER.
79. They are so incredibly vivid, I often have issues deciding if they were real or not.
80. I HATE it when people don’t say goodnight.
81. How do you know its not the last time you will see/talk to that person?
82. I love it when people are friendly.
83. I loathe those people who are on their phones when they are checking out at a store.
84. If people come into the tanning salon on a phone, I don’t talk to them, til they hang up.
85. I haven’t had much of a voice for 3 weeks now. Its annoying.
86. I have been eating Pickles and Olives with orange juice.
87. It even sounds nasty writing it, but its so good to me right now.
88. I need a body pillow.
89. You should buy me one! (joking!!!!!)
90. Morgan got her senior pictures, and the ones I’ve seen are amazing.
91. I was so sad I wasn’t there when she got them done, I had to work.
92. www.footprintsofgrace.com/blog. they are pretty awesome. (at least the few for now)
93. After I have the baby I am going to Bella Vita and getting my favorite dish.
94. It has shrimp and crab in it. I simply cannot wait to eat it.
95. I love milk with Ice.
96. I love dinner nights with Steph, Corey and friends.
97. I have amazing friends.
98. I will be attending my 7th concert of the summer tonight. Journey rocks.
99. I am obsessed with Carrie Underwood and India.Aries' music, they are amazing and get me thru bad days.
100. I wish Bryce was here to witness Zach and I becoming parents. But I know he’s watching.
1. I don’t really like to eat breakfast @ breakfast time.
2. I have to have my blankets completely straight before I go to bed, or I can’t sleep.
3. Manning sleeps right next to me, on his blanket every night, smashed against my legs.
4. I have to break this by the time the baby comes. But it will break my heart.
5. I talk to Manning like he is a human. Haha. My roommate makes fun of me for this.
6. I hate school. I feel like I will never finish.
7. I am a really bad athlete, but love to watch most all sports.
8. I want to rollerblade.
9. I can’t wait to teach this little one new things!
10. I hope he/she plays basketball!
11. Or football.
12. I hate soccer.
13. I’m a pack-rat
14. I hate hate hate putting my laundry away.
15. But I don’t mind doing it
16. I love to make lists. To do, Wish lists…any list
17. But I hardly ever use them
18. I try to walk Manning at least 1 mile everyday.
19. I’ve been doing pretty well with keeping to this.
20. But I skipped yesterday :) oops.
21. I love the smell of fresh cut grass.
22. And boys cologne.
23. I love going to my parents’ house and simply sitting.
24. It is so incredibly calming. (Most of the time.)
25. I can’t believe Morgan is going to go to college next year.
26. And I can’t believe Payton is going to be 13 years old.
27. I was her age when she was born.
28. And she will be the same age, when my little peanut comes!
29. The remote for the TV at work is broken, and it’s driving me insane.
30. I wish I saw my grandparents more often.
31. I want to tan soooo bad. It’s not bad to do, just not good.
32. Its bad to overheat…obviously.
33. I love living in Fishers.
34. I don’t ever plan on moving too far.
35. Zach and I have decided on names for the baby. Boy or girl. :)
36. But I’m sure they will change. Hahaha. We still aren’t telling, yet anyways.
37. We find out what we are having in 5 days(Monday 9am!!!!)and I’m losing sleep over it.
38. I am officially due February 9th, 2009.
39. But the Doctor told me I wouldn’t last that long. Lets hope.
40. I LOVE LOVE LOVE the way it feels when the baby kicks.
41. Its kicking me right now!
42. I think it’s a boy.
43. I hate when people lie.
44. I forgive too easily.
45. And I annoy myself with it.
46. I love to go places and do things
47. I love Cherry Coke.
48. I love to meet new people and can usually be friends with everyone.
49. I’m a quick judge of character…
50. I hate speaking in front of groups.
51. It makes me want to throw up.
52. But I’m outgoing, so I don’t really know why I’m this way.
53. I am obsessed with Texting. I would rather text than call on most occasions.
54. I love Halloween.
55. I think I’m getting Carpel Tunnel.
56. Stephanie says its because I text too much. Teehee!
57. I am obsessed with Thanksgiving.
58. Yes, I love the food, but mostly love it because its not all about presents.
59. Its about family.
60. I can’t wait for Basketball Season, and another winter spent in the NC gym.
61. I love fall.
62. I wish I could wear flip flops everyday.
63. I HATE socks. They make my feet hot.
64. I need to go back to church.
65. I think I might vote for the first time ever this year.
66. Things that certain politicians are saying are making my blood boil.
67. I cry a lot.
68. I have a temper.
69. But I’m really working on it.
70. I sleep with a fan on my face every night.
71. I wish some people would get over themselves and accept Zach and I’s situation.
72. 4 of my friends are pregnant, I make 5.
73. Stephanie is Due December 13
74. Tonya is due December 18
75. Shannon is due January 4
76. Then I’m next.
77. And Mindy is due sometime in April (don’t drink the water in Hamilton county)
78. I have the most bizarre dreams EVER.
79. They are so incredibly vivid, I often have issues deciding if they were real or not.
80. I HATE it when people don’t say goodnight.
81. How do you know its not the last time you will see/talk to that person?
82. I love it when people are friendly.
83. I loathe those people who are on their phones when they are checking out at a store.
84. If people come into the tanning salon on a phone, I don’t talk to them, til they hang up.
85. I haven’t had much of a voice for 3 weeks now. Its annoying.
86. I have been eating Pickles and Olives with orange juice.
87. It even sounds nasty writing it, but its so good to me right now.
88. I need a body pillow.
89. You should buy me one! (joking!!!!!)
90. Morgan got her senior pictures, and the ones I’ve seen are amazing.
91. I was so sad I wasn’t there when she got them done, I had to work.
92. www.footprintsofgrace.com/blog. they are pretty awesome. (at least the few for now)
93. After I have the baby I am going to Bella Vita and getting my favorite dish.
94. It has shrimp and crab in it. I simply cannot wait to eat it.
95. I love milk with Ice.
96. I love dinner nights with Steph, Corey and friends.
97. I have amazing friends.
98. I will be attending my 7th concert of the summer tonight. Journey rocks.
99. I am obsessed with Carrie Underwood and India.Aries' music, they are amazing and get me thru bad days.
100. I wish Bryce was here to witness Zach and I becoming parents. But I know he’s watching.
Monday, August 25, 2008
....16 weeks....
So yesterday was 16 weeks. Heres an update on the peanut! :) I can't wait to call it he or she!! 3 more weeks til we find out!!! :) SO apparently the next 3 weeks the peanut goes thru quite a growth spurt! This week its approx. 4.5 inches long and weighs about 3.5 ounces. Its eyes are moving closer to the front of the head, and the ears are moving in the right direction too!! Thank goodness for no more alien baby...its finally taking more and more of a human form!! haha. Its growing toenails too!!!:) And lastly...and the most fun thing to me is that its swallowing amniotic fluid and peeing it out....pretty funny! The kidneys are working! Yipee for that! :)
I have felt a lot more movement this weekend! :) Its pretty cool. I know its nothing compared to what I will feel....(i hear about things like jabs in the ribs and good stuff like that...) but its still so reassuring to know its in there...dropping kicking and swimming away! :) I have been feeling some stretching and pulling too of my ligaments. Its not very pleasant..but tis life I guess.
To answer questions to those of you who haven't seen me...I am not really "showing." I feel large. But b/c I'm not a small girl anyways, therefore it will probably be a while before I am really showing. Audra requested belly pictures. and I'm sorry but you probably wont be seeing any of those ever. but I will not say NEVER....never say never....but i'm going to say probably not. :)
I hope everyone had a great weekend!
xoxo
Tay
I have felt a lot more movement this weekend! :) Its pretty cool. I know its nothing compared to what I will feel....(i hear about things like jabs in the ribs and good stuff like that...) but its still so reassuring to know its in there...dropping kicking and swimming away! :) I have been feeling some stretching and pulling too of my ligaments. Its not very pleasant..but tis life I guess.
To answer questions to those of you who haven't seen me...I am not really "showing." I feel large. But b/c I'm not a small girl anyways, therefore it will probably be a while before I am really showing. Audra requested belly pictures. and I'm sorry but you probably wont be seeing any of those ever. but I will not say NEVER....never say never....but i'm going to say probably not. :)
I hope everyone had a great weekend!
xoxo
Tay
Random :) I.....
So I thought this was fun...I found this on a random blog, and thought I would do it....it makes you think...and I'm bored! For those of you that blog....do it! :)
I am: happy, but ready to be done working for the day.
I know: I'm loved..and that I have wonderful family and friends.
I want: get my voice back!! Its been gone for a week!
I have: a lot on my mind....
I wish: I had a million dollars.
I hate: being lied to.
I miss: My brother...I wish he was here to meet his niece/nephew in Feburary.
I fear: I'll never get married.
I feel: the baby moving!!!!!!!
I hear: a tanning bed running.
I smell: tanning lotion :)
I crave: right now, at this moment, nothing...hahaha MARK IT DOWN.
I search: online for random stuff, all day everyday..
I wonder: if we are having a boy or a girl.
I regret: nothing right now.
I love: you!!!
I care: way to much about what other people think, lately
I always: say I love you.
I am not: sad.
I believe: I will be an amazing mother.
I dance: to nothing. at least not in the last 3 months.
I sing:to the radio..and lots of carrie underwood! except i have no voice!
I fight: the least i can..but sometime my hormones take over. (sorry :( )
I write: a lot. Its one of my favorite things to do.
I lose (loss/lost): 8lbs since being pregnant...weird, yeah. complaining? no!
I win: hmm.....i dont know.
I never: get enough sleep!
I listen: the best I can.
I am scared: this baby won't let us see if its a boy or a girl....3 weeks!!!
I need: to figure out what im going to do about my living situation in a few months.
I am happy about: pretty much everything right now.
xoxo
Tay
Tuesday, August 19, 2008
...Jumping Bean...
So I definitely felt the baby punch/kick/move/whatever, today. It was awesome! I was soooooooo excited! :) It felt like someone was popping popcorn in my belly. I can't believe I have something growing inside of me thats kicking me already..... :) ::smiles::
Also...Stephanie rented a fetal heart doppler and we are able to hear the babies heartbeats. I was able to record it last night on my cell phone and then i emailed it to myself, but I can't figure out how to put it on here, or convert it to the right program. so if anyone can help me, then you will be able to hear the heartbeat. We counted and it was 152bpm :) Love it.
ok thats all for now! :)
xoxo
tay
Also...Stephanie rented a fetal heart doppler and we are able to hear the babies heartbeats. I was able to record it last night on my cell phone and then i emailed it to myself, but I can't figure out how to put it on here, or convert it to the right program. so if anyone can help me, then you will be able to hear the heartbeat. We counted and it was 152bpm :) Love it.
ok thats all for now! :)
xoxo
tay
**The Great Indiana State Fair**
So....I definitely went to the fair 3 times this year...bahahaha. Whatever, right?! You can never have too many walking tacos and corndogs! :)
Here are the pictures from all of my trips! :) Enjoy!
Carrie Underwood!!!!
This is the 4 of us, before Carrie, when Stephanie made us watch the donkey show.
I'm a good best friend, that I stuck around for this. ::wink wink::
and yes i know i'm pale...its annoying, please dont remind me.
This is Trip 2....Mom and Dad being goofy.
Dont worry, we didnt let him walk around like that alll night. hahaha.
Oh Miss Morgan
Morgan and I had a Photo Session while waiting for
Payton and Erin on the rides.
Morgan looks like she might be on drugs in this pictures.
hahahaha. But I promise she's not.
Love my sissy!
Dad being silly!
Who knew the Fair had a WATER LOG RIDE.
NASTY. But they liked it.
This was the only picture I took from trip 3.
That is like lots of pounds of cheese. I think it was like 10 or 15 THOUSAND
pounds. I was fascinated.
Hope all is well!
xoxo
Tay
Here are the pictures from all of my trips! :) Enjoy!
Carrie Underwood!!!!
This is the 4 of us, before Carrie, when Stephanie made us watch the donkey show.
I'm a good best friend, that I stuck around for this. ::wink wink::
and yes i know i'm pale...its annoying, please dont remind me.
This is Trip 2....Mom and Dad being goofy.
Dont worry, we didnt let him walk around like that alll night. hahaha.
Oh Miss Morgan
Morgan and I had a Photo Session while waiting for
Payton and Erin on the rides.
Morgan looks like she might be on drugs in this pictures.
hahahaha. But I promise she's not.
Love my sissy!
Dad being silly!
Who knew the Fair had a WATER LOG RIDE.
NASTY. But they liked it.
This was the only picture I took from trip 3.
That is like lots of pounds of cheese. I think it was like 10 or 15 THOUSAND
pounds. I was fascinated.
Hope all is well!
xoxo
Tay
Friday, August 15, 2008
New Doctor :)
So I went to the new Doctors office on Wednesday. I didn't get to meet my actual Doctor, b/c she was on vacation, but I met her Medical Assistants and her Nurse Pratititioner. This Doctors office was amazing. It was so diverse, with all different types of people in it, and that made me HAPPY!! So Anyways....I felt like they were A LOT more informative, and willing to answer my questions (and I have a lot of them) than the other Dr. (Please dont get me wrong, I liked my old Dr. But I think they were vauge if you are really early into your pregnancy, as opposed to the new office), they were just so excited for me, and made me more excited. My blood pressure was 92/60....which is a little low for me, but not too far off my normal bp. I got lectured from Stephanie about it already...don't worry. "You better keep that up Taylor, we dont need you passing out."....is what she said to me ;) love the best friend, thats a nurse. hahaha. I got to hear the heartbeat which was 156bpm. She said that it sounded great and strong, and I finally know exactly where the baby is in my tummy...I didnt know before. ha! I made an appointment to find out the sex for SEPTEMBER 15!!!! So hopefully this baby isn't stubborn like BOTH of its parents, and lets us see the "goods" so we know if we are buying dresses and fingernail polish, or basketball jerseys and hats!! :) I feel like its a boy. And hey...I have a 50/50 chance of being right, right?! ha! Either way I will be completely happy, as long as its healthy and growing the way it should! I will be 19 weeks at that point and will have some other testing done for down syndome and stuff like that. So pray for me that everything is well! :)
Moms birthday is today, so she wants to go to the fair for her bday! Sooo..hopefully I will have pictures. (dont hold me to it) I've been slacking in my picture taking. Ive been a little sleepy, and busy! :)
Hope all is well. Have a wonderful weekend :)
xoxo
tay
p.s. Stephanie and Corey have finished their nursery and it looks awesome. Note the green b/c they are FUN SUCKERS and aren't finding out the sex of the baby. So here is a link to her blog so you can see what Brooklyn (if its a girl)/Carter's (if its a boy) room looks like! www.stephaniecrutchfield.blogspot.com
Moms birthday is today, so she wants to go to the fair for her bday! Sooo..hopefully I will have pictures. (dont hold me to it) I've been slacking in my picture taking. Ive been a little sleepy, and busy! :)
Hope all is well. Have a wonderful weekend :)
xoxo
tay
p.s. Stephanie and Corey have finished their nursery and it looks awesome. Note the green b/c they are FUN SUCKERS and aren't finding out the sex of the baby. So here is a link to her blog so you can see what Brooklyn (if its a girl)/Carter's (if its a boy) room looks like! www.stephaniecrutchfield.blogspot.com
Tuesday, August 12, 2008
[[14 weeks]]
So Sunday was my 14 week mark. And it was almost as if what I've been reading that would happen in the 14th week, immediately started happening. My body feels so achey....its stretching, and I can feel it. Its really weird!! My hips ache, and my belly just feels like its stretching in a million directions and A LOT! Also, according to my books and such, it says the baby is about 3 to 4 inches. Its working on moving its eyes, but they don't open yet!Baby can smile and frown now and can grasp things!! They say that it may be even sucking its thumb!! Oh man! I hope I get a thumb sucker, I really dont think there is anything cuter in the world! Bryce sucked his thumb....I just think its precious! :)
Baby got its first gifts the last few weeks. Amanda bought the cutest outfit that says "I'm Awesome" across the front of it. And a little onsie that has turtles all over it (mitchells love turtles!!!), and it says "Thrill Seeker" She also got me a really cute picture frame that says Baby on it. I need to take pictures so everyone can see, I just forgot. Also, this weekend my Nana gave me the CUTEST picture frame ever that has 4 little spots for firsts....the first day, first kiss, first bath, and first something else..i can't remember right now...hmmm. Anyways...she also got a really neat SOOOOFT blankey for the peanut! Its pink, blue, yellow and green, so no matter what the sex is it will be perfect! :) It makes me excited to be getting things. My mom also has somewhat lost her mind in the purchasing area. She went to a garage sale and found a high chair, stroller, car seat, bouncy seat, and a swing. They all match, and look like they weren't even used. She also went to a little store called Once Upon a Child and found A LOT of outfits for like $1 and $2 a piece!! They are the cutest things I've ever seen. ::smiling::
We went to the State Fair and to see Carrie Underwood on Friday night. Morgan, Steph, Amanda, and myself. Our seats were awesome, the show was awesome. I absolutely love Carrie Underwood. Mildly obsessed, if you want to say. She is just so talented and makes me happy! That was like the 6th concert we have been to all summer, and although it wasn't really the best show persay, she was BY FAR the best vocal preformance we have seen. She was never off a note...ever...It was unbelievable. I had never been to a concert at the fair, and it was neat to see all of the behind the scene action. There is no "backstage" at the fair, so it was neat to see her come out of her trailer/bus, and walk up to the stage. It was just really cool. I would love to see her at Deer Creek (Verizon..whatever you call it), and a little bit longer of a show sometime. It was fun stuff! The fair was great, even though we couldn't find the pigs. That was rather disappointing. But dont you worry, because Stephanie made us watch a Donkey show. Yes...I said Donkey show. Silly asses. (bahahaha) They were doing hurdles and racing the Donkeys. Thank God Tonya came to meet us, or Stephanie might still have us sitting there watching those stinking donkeys! Food was good as usual! Hopefully we go back this weekend for moms birthday or when Daniels friend, Sara comes to town. :) Gotta love the walking Tacos.
Pretty excited for the new Dr. office tmw. Not 100% sure if I meet the new Dr. tmw....but either way...I'm just really happy to have found a place that I'm staying at! :) Hope I like them all!
Girls started school yesterday! Morgan is a Senior (yikes...college next year...i think we should lock her in her room)...and Paytons started Junior High! They both had pretty good days, they said. Very proud of both of them! They are growing up and are both so so smart! :)
xoxo
Tay
Baby got its first gifts the last few weeks. Amanda bought the cutest outfit that says "I'm Awesome" across the front of it. And a little onsie that has turtles all over it (mitchells love turtles!!!), and it says "Thrill Seeker" She also got me a really cute picture frame that says Baby on it. I need to take pictures so everyone can see, I just forgot. Also, this weekend my Nana gave me the CUTEST picture frame ever that has 4 little spots for firsts....the first day, first kiss, first bath, and first something else..i can't remember right now...hmmm. Anyways...she also got a really neat SOOOOFT blankey for the peanut! Its pink, blue, yellow and green, so no matter what the sex is it will be perfect! :) It makes me excited to be getting things. My mom also has somewhat lost her mind in the purchasing area. She went to a garage sale and found a high chair, stroller, car seat, bouncy seat, and a swing. They all match, and look like they weren't even used. She also went to a little store called Once Upon a Child and found A LOT of outfits for like $1 and $2 a piece!! They are the cutest things I've ever seen. ::smiling::
We went to the State Fair and to see Carrie Underwood on Friday night. Morgan, Steph, Amanda, and myself. Our seats were awesome, the show was awesome. I absolutely love Carrie Underwood. Mildly obsessed, if you want to say. She is just so talented and makes me happy! That was like the 6th concert we have been to all summer, and although it wasn't really the best show persay, she was BY FAR the best vocal preformance we have seen. She was never off a note...ever...It was unbelievable. I had never been to a concert at the fair, and it was neat to see all of the behind the scene action. There is no "backstage" at the fair, so it was neat to see her come out of her trailer/bus, and walk up to the stage. It was just really cool. I would love to see her at Deer Creek (Verizon..whatever you call it), and a little bit longer of a show sometime. It was fun stuff! The fair was great, even though we couldn't find the pigs. That was rather disappointing. But dont you worry, because Stephanie made us watch a Donkey show. Yes...I said Donkey show. Silly asses. (bahahaha) They were doing hurdles and racing the Donkeys. Thank God Tonya came to meet us, or Stephanie might still have us sitting there watching those stinking donkeys! Food was good as usual! Hopefully we go back this weekend for moms birthday or when Daniels friend, Sara comes to town. :) Gotta love the walking Tacos.
Pretty excited for the new Dr. office tmw. Not 100% sure if I meet the new Dr. tmw....but either way...I'm just really happy to have found a place that I'm staying at! :) Hope I like them all!
Girls started school yesterday! Morgan is a Senior (yikes...college next year...i think we should lock her in her room)...and Paytons started Junior High! They both had pretty good days, they said. Very proud of both of them! They are growing up and are both so so smart! :)
xoxo
Tay
Friday, August 8, 2008
my.rule.book.
So what I'm about to talk about is probably more than I should air. But its heavy on my mind and heart, and I told you all that I wasn't holding back on this blog. I am documenting everything I live...whether you like it or not. I need all of the support I can get through everything and unfortuantely, this week definitley did end the way it began (see Random Thoughts). So if you dont want to read this, and dont want to know, its ok!! Just dont go any farther. I will keep it somewhat censored, but you'll get the point.
Finding out you are going to be a parent has got to the be scariest realization ever. EVER. Especially in my current situation. And especially when I have basically been informed I will be doing things on my own. I was afraid of this, but ready to accept it when it came. I hope that things change when it comes down to certain peoples responsibilities, but if not I have accepted it 110%.
People who aren't married have children everyday. There is no rule book that says you have to be married or even in love with the mom or dad although it would be nice, in a perfect world, we have to remember that sometimes unplanned incidents (or blessings as I would like to call it) occur. But I think if I were to write a rule book it would say you have to be responsible and take care of what you created. Agreed? In my rule book it would say that its ok to be scared, its completely normal as far as I'm concerned....but just because one doesnt carry the baby doesnt mean they shouldn't have to give their support emotionally, physically, and financially. In my rule book it would say that all you have to do as a mommy and daddy....and grandma and grandpa...and aunts and cousins.....all we have to do is let the little miracle know that it is loved. That is the most important job we all have, I think. I pray everyday that my rule book could be followed. But we dont always get what we want.
Even if some people are choosing to opt out (today, b/c im sure it will change later...as usual), I am so thankful to have wonderful friends and family who are supporting me and my little peanut. But being angry, stressed, scared, or overly emotional about all of this isn't going to make the situation change at all, and this I have realized. It is others that have a way to go in understanding this.
Like I've said before the situation I'm in, isn't the ideal situation for my life. But its a blessing, and I refuse to be ashamed, embarassed or anything but excited at the fact that I'm going to be a Mom. There are some women that can't have children, there are some that don't want children....I apparentely, and obviously am neither, and should thank God for this. I've always wanted to be a mom. I wanted to be married, and in love, but sometimes God has a different plan for people....I'll take it...I can accept things. I was told I wouldn't have babies, and I swallowed a pill that claimed it was 99% effective against pregnancy, on a daily basis. This, my friends, was what God had in store for me. Whether you like it or not.
Times change, people change, situations change, but I feel like....I stay the same. Its frustrating, but I cant' control it, and I refuse to make an attempt to control it. Not my job. Everything that is happening, is happening for a reason. But one thing is for sure, you can't wish this situation away, because its still going to be here in the morning, and its definitely going to be here by February.
If you have a spare moment, please pray for my sanity.
Also...I dont know if I talked about this in my other posts...so if I did, forgive me, baby has taken my brain. Seriously. But I am due February 9,2009. kinda fun..02.09.09...but we all know its very rare to come on your due date. My mom says that 3/4 of us came on our due dates....and 3/4 on Fridays. Payton just had to be the oddball out, and be born on a Monday..a week or so early! :) But she is our baby girl! Anyways...I WILL be finding out the sex. But I will NOT, NOT, NOT, be sharing names with anyone. I am a freak about names. I have seen the reactions that some rude people give when people talk about names, and when this happens to me...it makes me change my mind. It is rather frustrating, and I chose not to deal with peoples faces, and stupid comments. I have a boy name picked out...its pretty set. And yes, to answer your question in a certain way, if it is a boy, he will be named after Bryce. But I will let you know, that Bryce won't be his first name, for my own personal reasons. Bryce was Bryces name...I couldnt look at my baby and call him Bryce...But I think you will all be pleased with what I've come up with (and if not...whatever!)....but if its a girl..you'll never know I guess. haha. If its a girl...I have a lot of different names picked out. I have always said I will name my children diferent, off the wall names...names you can't find on an Indiana License plate at Wal Mart or on a Pencil in party city. So have fun guessing if you want....but I'm not telling. Because when the baby is here the name I have picked with the be the name it carries forever...and no one will have a choice other than to like it. So thats, that!!!
On a lighter note....Carrie Underwood concert is tonight at the Fair. Me, Steph, Morgan and Amanda are going! I'm pretttttty excited. Music has always been my outlet, and she has helped me thru a lot in my life. Love her!! And I cannot wait to see her in concert! :) And the weather is so perfect!! Yay for sunshine, statefair corn dogs, walking tacos and Carrie Underwood! The perfect ending to a cruddy week.
Went to visit Iyanna last night....she wasn't happy. Hopefully I can make it over there more often so she doesnt scream everytime I pick her up. She is only preparing me. haha!
I go to my new Doctor on Wednesday. I dont think I get to meet her, but I will in a couple of weeks. I am just glad to finally be settled where I need to be!
Again..we are all adults here, and this is my business. I chose to put it out there, just like others have chosen the path that they are going to take. If you dont like it, I dont want to hear about it, I warned you, and you shouldn't have read it :)
xoxo
Tay
Finding out you are going to be a parent has got to the be scariest realization ever. EVER. Especially in my current situation. And especially when I have basically been informed I will be doing things on my own. I was afraid of this, but ready to accept it when it came. I hope that things change when it comes down to certain peoples responsibilities, but if not I have accepted it 110%.
People who aren't married have children everyday. There is no rule book that says you have to be married or even in love with the mom or dad although it would be nice, in a perfect world, we have to remember that sometimes unplanned incidents (or blessings as I would like to call it) occur. But I think if I were to write a rule book it would say you have to be responsible and take care of what you created. Agreed? In my rule book it would say that its ok to be scared, its completely normal as far as I'm concerned....but just because one doesnt carry the baby doesnt mean they shouldn't have to give their support emotionally, physically, and financially. In my rule book it would say that all you have to do as a mommy and daddy....and grandma and grandpa...and aunts and cousins.....all we have to do is let the little miracle know that it is loved. That is the most important job we all have, I think. I pray everyday that my rule book could be followed. But we dont always get what we want.
Even if some people are choosing to opt out (today, b/c im sure it will change later...as usual), I am so thankful to have wonderful friends and family who are supporting me and my little peanut. But being angry, stressed, scared, or overly emotional about all of this isn't going to make the situation change at all, and this I have realized. It is others that have a way to go in understanding this.
Like I've said before the situation I'm in, isn't the ideal situation for my life. But its a blessing, and I refuse to be ashamed, embarassed or anything but excited at the fact that I'm going to be a Mom. There are some women that can't have children, there are some that don't want children....I apparentely, and obviously am neither, and should thank God for this. I've always wanted to be a mom. I wanted to be married, and in love, but sometimes God has a different plan for people....I'll take it...I can accept things. I was told I wouldn't have babies, and I swallowed a pill that claimed it was 99% effective against pregnancy, on a daily basis. This, my friends, was what God had in store for me. Whether you like it or not.
Times change, people change, situations change, but I feel like....I stay the same. Its frustrating, but I cant' control it, and I refuse to make an attempt to control it. Not my job. Everything that is happening, is happening for a reason. But one thing is for sure, you can't wish this situation away, because its still going to be here in the morning, and its definitely going to be here by February.
If you have a spare moment, please pray for my sanity.
Also...I dont know if I talked about this in my other posts...so if I did, forgive me, baby has taken my brain. Seriously. But I am due February 9,2009. kinda fun..02.09.09...but we all know its very rare to come on your due date. My mom says that 3/4 of us came on our due dates....and 3/4 on Fridays. Payton just had to be the oddball out, and be born on a Monday..a week or so early! :) But she is our baby girl! Anyways...I WILL be finding out the sex. But I will NOT, NOT, NOT, be sharing names with anyone. I am a freak about names. I have seen the reactions that some rude people give when people talk about names, and when this happens to me...it makes me change my mind. It is rather frustrating, and I chose not to deal with peoples faces, and stupid comments. I have a boy name picked out...its pretty set. And yes, to answer your question in a certain way, if it is a boy, he will be named after Bryce. But I will let you know, that Bryce won't be his first name, for my own personal reasons. Bryce was Bryces name...I couldnt look at my baby and call him Bryce...But I think you will all be pleased with what I've come up with (and if not...whatever!)....but if its a girl..you'll never know I guess. haha. If its a girl...I have a lot of different names picked out. I have always said I will name my children diferent, off the wall names...names you can't find on an Indiana License plate at Wal Mart or on a Pencil in party city. So have fun guessing if you want....but I'm not telling. Because when the baby is here the name I have picked with the be the name it carries forever...and no one will have a choice other than to like it. So thats, that!!!
On a lighter note....Carrie Underwood concert is tonight at the Fair. Me, Steph, Morgan and Amanda are going! I'm pretttttty excited. Music has always been my outlet, and she has helped me thru a lot in my life. Love her!! And I cannot wait to see her in concert! :) And the weather is so perfect!! Yay for sunshine, statefair corn dogs, walking tacos and Carrie Underwood! The perfect ending to a cruddy week.
Went to visit Iyanna last night....she wasn't happy. Hopefully I can make it over there more often so she doesnt scream everytime I pick her up. She is only preparing me. haha!
I go to my new Doctor on Wednesday. I dont think I get to meet her, but I will in a couple of weeks. I am just glad to finally be settled where I need to be!
Again..we are all adults here, and this is my business. I chose to put it out there, just like others have chosen the path that they are going to take. If you dont like it, I dont want to hear about it, I warned you, and you shouldn't have read it :)
xoxo
Tay
Monday, August 4, 2008
.random.thoughts.
Random thoughts.
**I hope my week doesnt end the way it has began.
**I really hope I dont have to do this on my own. I really, really hope I don't.
**Its amazing to me how something the size of "large peach" can make my body feel the way it feels.
**I am so tired of getting dizzy, its driving me insane.....how long does this last?? Be honest with me, I can take it. ::smiles::
**I can't wait to meet my new Doctor in 10 days!
**I am offically in my 2nd trimester, and still waiting to not be tired! I am definitely less tired, but still can sleep whenever I want.........now if I could just STAY asleep and not have to get up and pee every 2 hours! That would be my dream! haha
**I wish I could win the lottery.
**I wish this was easier for me. But I'm trying to as positive as I can.
**I have started getting bad headaches.
**I have started feeling flutters......I think. I just want to know if its the baby moving around, or just gas! :) haha
**My memory SUCKS so so bad, as each day passes! I dont remember things very well.
**I think I'm going to start going back to church. I need Jesus. a lot. and I'm not being funny.
**Completely random: I can't wait for the Carrie Underwood concert at the State Fair on Friday! Out of all 8 or 9 concerts we have this summer, I've been looking forward to this one the most!
**Manning is still not feeling 100%, but is getting better! (I went to get his nails clipped last week, they found a growth on his leg, said it was a staph infection, put him on steriods, then he couldn't control his bladder....he peed wherever, whenever, or he couldn't pee at all. not fun. and very expensive.) He is getting me ready to be a Mommy.
**I AM going to be a Mommy. and I promise to be the best one I can be...I had a great example!
There are my thoughts. I'm sure there were more, before I started.....but I would imagine I forgot them. The baby has stolen my brain!!! It is really gone.
13 weeks and 1 day today. 26 weeks and 6 days to go. Good God, seems far away.
Your prayers would be helpful. I'm currently feel like I'm living in a tornado. I'm waiting for the calm after the storm. There has to be right?
xoxo
Tay
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